The only thing that makes me truly happy

Today at work I was browsing through wallpapers to customize the new computer in the office. My coworker suggested that I put a picture of my dog, PeeWee, up. Her reasoning was that I should have a picture that makes me happy whenever I look at it. I thought that was great idea. I already have a picture of PeeWee as my background on my laptop and my cell phone so it only made sense to have him on my work computer. That also made me realize something that I've always known but never really thought about it. PeeWee is the only thing that makes me truly happy. Even though he's gotten into the garbage can too many times and still hasn't realized that he's not allowed to sit on our new recliner, I can't help but smile when he's around. Even when I have to run after him when it's time to brush his unruly hair and struggle with him to clean his ears and eyes, I still can't think of anything negative towards him. Even though walking him, especially in the cold rain, is a drag sometimes, I still wouldn't trade him for anything the world. Simply looking at him melts away frustration and stress. Now I'm not a crazy dog owner. Studies have shown that people with pets are happier and healthier than their non-pet counterparts. One study even showed that most people would rather be with their pets on Valentine's Day than with their spouses. Now I don't think I would go that far but I do understand the reasoning. Dogs are so incredibly loyal. They are always happy to see you when you come home. There's no better feeling for me than coming home and seeing PeeWee wag his tail with excitement and  jump around not knowing what to do with himself because he's so happy that I'm home. Has anyone in your life ever greeted you that way? I don't think so. I'm lucky to get a smile out of my boyfriend when he sees me. PeeWee won't ever give me an attitude because he's had a bad day. His heart would never turn cold towards me. He would never say or do anything to hurt to me. PeeWee won't wake up one morning and decide he's changed and tell me to either deal with it or go find someone else. His love and loyalty is limitless. A dog really is a person's best friend because he will never let you down. You never have question a dog's love like you a person. I don't have any negative thoughts or feelings associated with PeeWEe despite the terror he was as a puppy. But it's different with people. You can't always forget the bad things about them even if you try really hard. I don't think a person (maybe unless it's your child) can ever give you the same happiness that a dog can. A relationship with a person can cause unnecessary pain and stress. Having a dog can only bring you positive benefits. 

I hear my PeeWee's feet pattering around upstairs. It's time for me to relax and be happy so I think I'll go upstairs and show PeeWee the same love he's shown me for almost 7 years. 

Trust

For the past couple of days I've been thinking about the word trust a lot. Is it really possible to trust a spouse 100 percent? Can complete trust shield act as a veil, shielding us from the truth? Trust is something that seems simple in a relationship, especially with a person that has not given you a reason not to trust him/her. But I feel that trust isn't something that is just established in the beginning of a relationship and then left alone. It's like saying,"Hey, I haven't done anything for you not to trust me yet so you can trust me forever." But can you really? People change and even when they are in love they do foolish things. So if I adhere to the belief that since you never gave me a reason to distrust you I shall never be the least bit suspicious and take everything you say at face value, will things be okay? For me trusting someone 100 percent makes you vulnerable. Because when you have complete trust you feel that you have no reason to be suspicious and that can lead you to ignore instincts that could otherwise help you. I don't know if this making a whole lot of sense now but it's just my feelings on the issue of trust. A person doesn't necessarily have to lie or cheat for you to lose to trust in him/her. I feel that a lot of things can lead to trust breaking down. For example if your partner changes his feelings about issues that are relevant to your relationship, that can lead some sort of suspicion. "What is the reason for this change of heart?," you find yourself thinking. If one value can change what's to say that other values won't change. But the biggest thing for me now is when your partner sees how hurt you are by something he/she did (even if it seems insignificant to him/her), and doesn't do anything about it. Instead he/she turns the situation around and makes you feel like you are at fault for feeling hurt. So you can't help but wonder that if your partner sees your hurt feelings as your own fault and isn't willing to do anything about it, how can you trust him/her in the first place. You shouldn't hurt the one you love and if you did so unintentionally you should correct the issue right away. When you really love someone and want to be with that person you will sacrifice anything and everything and not complain about it. Because that person would do the same for you. Your disregard to my feelings by not acting in a way to make them better shows me that I can't trust you 100 percent. Because if I can't trust you to make me feel better and more secure in the relationship then how can I ever trust you completely?